I will become crazy for God’s will
Sun Myung Moon
November 12, 2011
Hoon Dok Hae
Cheon Jeong Gung on 10.17 by the H.C.
Note: These notes are taken from a Peace TV video clip. They cannot be published as definitive texts and should never be used in the future as an “official” publication of True Father’s words. However, they do provide a good idea of the “spirit” of the message. — Rev. Katsumi Kambashi
Mrs. McDevitt read Father’s speech titled “Heart and Public Life” from his speech book #33, given on Aug. 11, 1970.
“When people don’t fit your leaders, they will say “When leaders become old, they should be better, but instead they always get upset.” I am living in the time zones of two or three layers but in your case, when you are finished with Hoon Dok Hae, it means the end of the meeting. But if I am in your shoes, I will become crazy (for God’s will).
Yesterday, I talked the whole day, and you will say, “Why does Father talk again about what he said yesterday?” In order to indemnify every time when there is a failure, conditions must continue to be made repeatedly, but you will say, “Why does Father repeat the same thing?” That’s why you are getting farther from me, instead of getting closer. Satan knows such things and utilize such a strategy, but you don’t know it. What shall I do then? Should I just leave such people? I have to kick them out. That’s why at the time of concluding the providence, I think that I shouldn’t meet you. When I see you 10 times, you should know what I am saying at least two or three times. If you pretend to understand but actually have no clue for all the 10 times, what shall I do?
Some think I speak something different from what they expect without resolving their own problems and they don’t want to listen to the principles. That is wrong. Others come here several times but doze every time. They shouldn’t come here. So I must say you should know the principle. Those who come to Hoon Dok Hae for the first time have no clue about what I am saying, and when I repeat some points, they say ‘Father is strange. Why does he say that again?’ Why do some people come to this place thinking to solve their own familial problem?
You should come here with understanding what you will listen here that day. What you listened here from the reading can be your direction to go and goals for that day but you don’t think that way, and so what can I do? You should know Satan is working on you that way. Satan says ‘You don’t need these words and what you think is right.’ That’s why you should know the principle.
What I said 10 years ago and 20 years ago are the same. Some say, ‘I came here for the first time and all what Father did was scold us.’ Why do they come the first time? There are some members who come here every day, and so those who come here for the first time are bystanders who make rumors and make trouble.
You must read my eight textbooks and teaching materials. Some have not read this speech (of the Cosmic Assembly for the Proclamation of the Settlement of the True Parents of Heaven, Earth, and Humankind and the Substantial Word of God) even once. I have been reading this everyday and wait for Hoon Dok Hae everyday thinking, ‘What will I listen to tomorrow morning?’ But some think ‘Why does Father say that?’ and so as time goes by, those who are long-time members end up leaving the church.
I must come here to the meeting without knowing the contents of my speech to read that day. I would criticize them otherwise. When reading, I am serious and don’t doze like a bystander. Some say while dozing ‘I don’t understand what Father is saying.’ Do I have to educate such people here? When you have something different in your mind at Hoon Dok Hae, you doze. I can’t doze and if I do so, I must repent. After the meeting, I criticize myself thinking ‘Because of this and that, I dozed forgetting the environment I was in.’ You must think of everything centering on the principle but you don’t.”
“I am scared with my speech the most. You come here to learn but you have so many of your own thoughts and criticize the church. You will say ‘Oh, I hear the same contents every day,’ but that is not true. Everyday, your understanding could be deeper and wider.”
“Why don’t you bring the speech file? Why don’t you write down what you listen?”
“Those who are smart dislike religion it is because they can think differently within a same day. But those who know the indemnity course can have their own thought, stopping to go back to the past and indemnify it. Church leaders, even they become like beggars in the end, should have your respect.”
“I am not like you. I know the principle and I am different.”
“Why did you come here? Just to meet me or to understand what I care and follow it? If you don’t like what parents are doing, they come to dislike their parents too.
“I think about what the mind and body want but you think only what the body wants.”
“I see above the horizon but you see below it. How I see things is different from you and so things appear different to me.”
“When I am thinking of going somewhere, I pray (and then he opened his speech file and put his hand on one of the opened page.) My mind and hand know. If the contents my hand indicates doesn’t fit (what I think of that day), I don’t go to the place.”